Golden SunRise @Brightlife888,
Nobody can in each other’s place. But if I were you I would surrender to the situation first. You know why?? This will bring the situation on an even platform. When someone is suffering too much and taking too many of medicine which is not working, she/he should stop all medicare for once. This window brings the body to a base level, then, one should take up a new prescription. Likewise, if you are currently feeling too much suppressed, surrender to the situation for a while.
Genius ko koi dabaa sakta hai kya? Aapka mann hi aapko kamzor kar sakta hai aur koi nahi. Please do not think that the world will always according to you, mostly you will see a BSc or an MSc person end up working in a Bank. My interest is in Literature but I started my career as a Hardcore computer programmer, and look at the irony – for last 27 years, I am heading a Sales team in Shoe industry. Now, think what would you have done if you were in my place. What should have I done ? I am giving my own example, so that you may not think that I am not understanding your despair.
Dear @Brightlife888, most of us, do not get their dream job or expected life. Companies, today, have a cut-throat environment, where there is always enormous work pressure and still superiors try to suppress sub-ordinates more, so that they do not evaluate themselves and desire for more. They actually try kill their ambitions. But still people are surviving …..isn’t it? At your end, I would have been proud of what I was, and maintain that I still am the same…..intelligent & capable. But I will try to be wise too. Who can suppress me at work or at home when I can tackle the fiasco better & faster than others (otherwise my evaluation about myself stands wrong). Even working for my dream company, I might be having a big work pressure. Then I might not be complaining but situation would be the same.
Please understand, inferiority complex is result of self inflicted notions and mis-judgement about oneself and confidence is an assurance from within that ‘I can do it’. Please break the shackles within yourself and recognize your real self. That is the Mantra. Give-in to the situation however, grim they are. Go with the wave but don’t get drowned, swim along and you will see that you are ahead of others in ‘their’ race.
I suggest you stop all the serums for the time being and with VK in your hand, ‘Release your Negative Emotions’ (Chapter-2 of Manual), under heads Fear, Greif & Apathy, for 15 days or 1 month. I think you will find your desired result and confidence. You may start your favorite serums after that. May God Bless you.