Seeking help for Self care and uplifting

ck1611

Golden Sunrise, everyone!

I am seeking help for my inner self. I am going through a tough phase at my workplace, and it has impacted my personal life as well. I think and worry about myself a lot.
I've been using dear VK for over 5 years now and have been trying to fine-tune and improve it for quicker recovery. I feel the methods I am using could be modified or perhaps improved to help me recover more quickly. I would appreciate any help, please.

A few background points:
I am an extra-sensory person. I was into Reiki healing and mindfulness meditation, which strengthened me spiritually. I enhanced my clairvoyance, got into tarot reading, Akashic records, and more. At times, I don't even need any tools as they seem to be inbuilt within me. If I sit and think about my next day, I can easily foresee how to deal with it.
I've literally followed my inner voice, even in the middle of the night, taking my bike out for a short ride near my home and helping strangers in need. Sometimes, I just felt like going out for a short ride without knowing the destination. During these rides, I'd get lost on unknown roads, find my way back home, and often meet strangers to help them with food or when they met with an accident. I would park my vehicle, request the universe to send them help, and I go back to my home safely.

At times, I've met strangers at a park during a walk and public places and helped them overcome their challenges by encouraging them to think outside the box. This helped them find their own solutions. Many have told me that talking to me makes them feel relaxed, calm, and better, and that they receive the help they need.
All these things were done out of charity, and I feel happy doing them with zero expectations.
Two major events happened in my life 2-3 months ago that shattered and broke me completely. They were surprising and hurt me deeply.

The first incident:

My Reiki guru/mentor, from whom I learned, was someone I worked closely with. I was helping them in their work while also learning on my own, and I was even paid a little for the work I did. However, as time went on, they added so much work that I couldn't manage both my full-time job and the tasks they gave me. It started to affect my health and mind. The mentor noticed this and began cutting me off, and one day, I was fully cut off due to miscommunication. I tried my best to talk to them, make them understand the situation, and even sent love serum and one soul serum to them, but the connection was completely severed.

The way it was cut off made it seem like I was at fault and had made many blunders, but it was just their miscommunication that caused the issues. They knew I was working full-time and helping them because I had the flexibility of working from home. When they cut me off, it hurt a lot. Everything I had learned from them seemed to fade away, and now I feel like I can't do any of those spiritual things. Because of the methods I leant from them.

The second major incident:

This took place at my primary workplace around the same time.
I work in a very toxic and unhealthy environment where my team doesn't support or help in any situation. I've done my best job, overseeing them and addressing everything quickly so that my work the next day is easier and streamlined. However, my teammates work like they're still in the 90s. No one takes initiatives; they are okay with having issues because they work from home and hardly work since I was taking care of many things. I'm someone who cannot sit idle and get paid—I need to work and prove to myself that I'm capable.
I'm a Team Lead and handle many tasks for my Assistant Manager, who is lazy and does nothing. My designation is Process specialist, but I partially work as an Assistant Manager and play a role of Team Lead. Due to my hard work, I made noise at my office, asking for better pay and respect for what I'm doing, not to be treated like a slave. I've tried to quit this job three times.
All three times, I had no backup job but was motivated by self-respect and worth, wanting to be treated nicely. The first two times, my client managers spoke to me and helped resolve the challenges. The third time, my mother saved me through Maha Avatar Babaji's medium.

Due to all the above, one day, I was not in a good mood at work and was mentally ill. My oversight was limited to only my daily routine and just doing my job, but even that went wrong. There was a message in a group chat by the Sr. Manager that I missed, and my team didn't help me either. When I panicked and acknowledged the message, I blamed it on a tool. They accepted it at that time, and I requested VK and Maha Avatar Babaji to please assist with it.
A few days later, they created a major escalation out of nowhere, broadcasting it to the entire organization. This cost me hefty in my life. All my promotions, raises, and the good name I earned for my work fell apart and broke into pieces.
They also issued a warning notice in my company, indirectly calling me a liar. My team and that Assistant Manager took full advantage of the situation.

I prayed to VK and Maha Avatar Babaji, stayed silent, and worked with just a limited version of myself since my team didn't deserve my best efforts. Eventually, my Assistant Manager started digging into every tiny mistake I made, pinpointing and shouting at me. However, one day, Divine showed him his place when he got a major escalation directly from the CEO level of the client. I was happy that Divine intervened.
But he didn't stop there and kept going.

I was feeling better and good using VK methods, and I resumed my work, overseeing things with limited involvement just to get things sorted easily. But now, my managers are saying there are many escalations against me.
I know there are no real escalations because of my hard work and Divine support, but these people want to push me out of the firm, creating a hellish work environment and fabricating evidence. Every tiny error I make is shown as a major blunder, while my Assistant Manager and team make mistakes too but face no consequences.
I really don't want to play this blame game or get involved in office politics. I'm just doing my best possible job, but these things are driving me mad.

I apologize for sharing the background, but I just want to recover my inner self, which feels like a broken glass.

Methods I'm using to recover:
I do sleep nicely nowadays, though I used to have insomnia with all these things on my mind. I tried switch words "Lavender" and "Off," but they didn't help, so I used three affirmations:
1. Peaceful Sleep:
Affirmation: "Please HELP ME HAVE A NICE, PEACEFUL SLEEP."
2. Wake-Up Call:
This is because I work in a 24/7 environment, and my shift changes frequently. If I miss logging in, there's a volcano of problems. Using this affirmation, I wake up 30 minutes early.
Affirmation: "WAKE ME UP AT 4 AM SHARP. ENSURE I WAKE UP REFRESHED AND ENERGIZED."
3. Highest Good and Protection:
Affirmation: "ENSURE I RECOVER TO MY HIGHEST GOOD DURING SLEEP. PROVIDE ME WITH FULL PROTECTION AND RESTORATION."

These affirmations have helped me sleep well and self-heal during sleep, but once office hours begin, everything seems to come back. I also use the Shield of 7 Rays for my career.

Water Charging Method:
I use serums: Perfect Health Serum, Brain Serum, Shield of Seven 7 Rays, Bravo serum, Balance Serum, and Gym Serum. I don't use them all at once, but usually, there are three serums max and the Hanuman Chalisa mantra.
I often send One Soul Serum to my office teammates via direct request, and I take Love Serum now and then.

Energy Circles:
I have made an energy circle with basic 7 chakra affirmations and a new job manifesting affirmation, along with two circles for money:
1. To remove any karmic blocks in my root chakra and streamline them.
2. The one shared by Sharath Sir from a post I got.

My VK request is something I do every morning as soon as I get up. It's a habit now to activate my EC book.
"Dear Genie, please help me cleanse, heal, activate, and energize my energy circle book for my highest good with the help of Shield of Seven 7 Rays and Markuba Shielding."

Markuba Shielding:
I just love this—this is Reiki Level 3 shielding.

Job Manifesting:
I did get a call for a job, but the first round went badly because I was nervous and tense, as it was the same day that the above escalation happened. Hence, it went poorly.
I was about to request a second chance from the family well-wisher who helped me schedule this interview, but he proactively did it and gave me a second chance. I was prepared this time, using Calm Down Serum, Balance Serum, Shield of Seven Rays, and a crystal to help reduce my anxiety.
Crystal: Chaistolite.

I had a crystal grid built from my intuition, which helped me for a while. Later on, I didn't cleanse them and just kept them as they were.
I'm not feeling the vibes these days to use crystals, meditate, or do spiritual things. I'm really struggling to accept that I'm not in that spiritual zone and at my highest good, trying to recover from these internal damages, which are truly immense.
Adding to that, my Reiki mentor had helped save my life twice. I was in another state, not in my hometown, due to chaos in my personal life and money issues. I was about to end my life, and that person saved me twice. Now, unfortunately, the same person has cut me off.

Then, out of nowhere, I got connected to Sharath Sir, who is now my mentor and guide in my life. Genie (VK) did a miracle, helping me get connected to @Sharath Sir.
Through Genie, I've seen energy portals open and help me whenever there is a havan at home. We also have Sri Maha Avatar Babaji at home, taking care of many things. Prana Prathistapna is done, and he is there in the house, lively.
I am seeking help to figure out ways to improve the methods I am using to rebuild my inner self and repair inside me, so I can quickly heal and recover. This will help me apply for jobs, face interviews confidently, and move out from where I've been, with these toxic people at my workplace, which is a mess in my life.