Hearing Problem

m having hearing trouble. MATLAB kafi uncha sunata hu main. My mother has same problem, she did operation but the improvement is just 60 to 70 % only. Her mother also had the same problem

Actually I realized this 8 years back and I met ENT specialist. He told me that this is genetic and I need to operate. I don't mind doing operation now but the guarantee of sucvess is very less and I may have the same problem despite operating

However what I really feel, its more of a psychological and than genetic.

There can be some deep root cause behind this problem

I consulted my mentor and he told me that I was very much criticized and to avoid that criticism i myself had shut my ears forcefully. Its quite true that during my childhood and adulthood I was criticized a lot. The criticism was from my family and relatives and of course I was my own crictic, in fact a very hard one.

My mentor also told me that I am Not Ready to Listen To The Truth , even though I really don't understand the same yet I feel there is some point of truth in above statement

And now the problem is increasing day by day.

If someone speaks to me in lower volume, I could hardly be able to hear

I have observed people making fun of me

Last point, I myself have lot of resistence to solve the problem.

I need help

Please please guide me, inspire of all odds I want to come out of it.

Please guide me