We all are on the earth to make it purposeful collectively.
It is not only mine it is ours life. Life itself is a purpose if you don't find make a purpose and live that.
@Akki ji, i can relate very well with your situation at a time i had faced similar thinking and then Divine bless me with VK and guidance by @"Sharat Sir-VK Inventor" ji.
In this universe nothing gets wasted everything has both Positive and negative in it, according to the situation sometimes good becomes bad itself.
Sharing a learning by @"Sanjay Roy-Certified VK Teacher" Sir,
One user pray to divine
"please remove all hatred from my being".
Removal of hate is good but later than Sir explain ;
Hate from smoking, drinking etc.. is not bad, so what is learning "hate" turns good if you hate negetive behaviours.
Gratitudes to all the learnings
only @"Sanjay Roy-Certified VK Teacher" can explain wonderful learning i just try to share from memory.
You can read my personal experience in this link also