Yes, I somehow can see myself a lot in this lady’s life.
I have given this man my life my youth he has always humiliated me cheated lied cursed me.
I was pregnant with his child it was an ectopic pregnancy I nearly died I was hospitalised for 47 days not once he has come to see me when I was calling him he would put the phone down on me and said I was disturbing his well being.
What this man has done and has not done to me, God I don’t know how I put up with all this misery.
He used me he would come to see me only for one hour once in a blue moon never went anywhere with me never helped me out whatsoever.
I know he is not the right man for me but I see myself going back to him every time he wants me I can’t say no to him.
I think because he is the only person that talks to me so I kind of remain in this vicious circle.
I fear of being on my own and there is so much going on in my life like my sleep problems no job no family etc I see him as a bit of support and comfort.
I know it doesn’t make sense but when you don’t have anyone it becomes a relief hearing the voice of another human being.
I sometimes well most of the time feel like a failure I married a man a lot older than me at a very young age.
He was possessive jealous violent I became his prisoner for years.
when I finally got off his hook I then met this guy.
My bad luck he is verbally abusive he always makes me feel ugly, not worthy of anyone.
My life became worse to live as I had fallen in love with him or maybe it was an obsession because he was the only one I had.
In 2016 I decided to end us because he was hurting me too much.
I then met the other man who I thought was God’s gift.
I was like oh my God has finally heard my tears and I now have someone who will understand me but he left me too.
I then went into depression and things got worse and worse until I found myself going back to the abusive boyfriend.
I became such a nervous wrecked I felt wasted rejected I hated myself my life was falling apart again.
While surfing the net I found Sharat Sir I had a lot of doubts as I have tried everything in life and nothing was working.
Then after a month, I said to myself give it a try I had around just about enough money for me to get my vk and vs.
I’m happy I did as its opening my eyes to see and identify the truth the mistakes that I was hiding burying just because I fear loneliness.
From childhood, all I ever learned is to say yes and this has led me to destruction.
I have to break this cycle and live my life for me.
I feel like a living corpse but I’m trusting life is changing and it’s no coincidence that this lady’s life reflects to mine. It is like wakening up lessons.
The question is has he really changed or is he just manipulating me again is he up to his old tricks I really don’t know.
He is now telling me he will move in with me I am so confused about whether to believe him or not.
Do I give him another chance or not?
Do people change?
Why can’t I let go?
Why this fear of loneliness?
Is it better to be lonely than in the wrong company?
I still don’t have the strength to let go of him.
I know soon or later I will have to make a decision as he is not doing any good to me.
I have asked my vk to guide me and removed the fear of being lonely.
I long to have people in my life but nobody is interested in me.
I talk to my vk I cry to him I kiss him he is the only friend I have that won’t hurt me.
Since I’m not working I don’t go out I close myself indoors I’m really suffering a lot but I know vk is changing things slowly.
First I have to find my own identity and love myself.
I have my plate full that sometimes I don’t want to live but reading other vk users success stories give me hopes.
The forum is of big support and consolation.
A big thank you to everyone who shares their stories and of course, you vk team.
Im allowing VK to work its magic in my life ….