Dear @Madhursr,
Golden Sunrise and may the Divine be your guide. Your quarry is a very interesting question which has been asked very often. You will find various response from different learned persons and they might be correct in their versions. In this forum, we give our opinion, irrespective of how some one may correlate.
From what you have shared, it seems that from your childhood, Guru has been imposed on you and you have followed whatever was been asked you to do. Unfortunately, this is not the right way. If you know Hindi language well, it is the position when you say "Main karta raha, auro ki kahi…..meri baat mere mann hi mei rahi" (its a line from a song). It means that "I have been doing whatever, others told me to do and my thoughts remained dumped in me". Dear Madhur, Gurus could be recommended but finding a real Guru is like hitting a jackpot which happens in a lifetime.
Allow me to opine, first of all we must know, who is a Guru or how do we define a Guru. In our scriptures, Father is mentioned as the first Guru (the initiator of your being), then Mother is considered as a Guru (she is the nurturer), the Teacher comes after them (who teaches you about the world out there), but the Guru we are talking about is different from all. He is the one who is your Mentor. He teaches you, Guides you, Navigates you, and polishes you. He is the one who cleans the flaws out of you. He is the one who may treat you strongly, rebuke you, admonish you but shall bring out the ‘Real You’ out of you. He may not be a professional teacher, who is confined to his subject, whether you learn it well or not, finishes the syllabus…….He is attached to you as a father, who will always protect you like cover of a lantern protects the flame from the wind of the storms, nurture as a mother, who will favor you and inspire, and impart as a teacher – the right way to elevate your soul for the journey called Spirituality.
So, I would say till yet you have not encountered your physical Guru because your search has been recommended by others……. Search yourself. Remember, a Guru is not necessarily a head of an Institution…………He is an institution in himself. Search someone whom from your heart, you would like to follow.
Reasoning with oneself is required. Let me ask you a simple logic. Now you have VK with you, which makes your way even brighter. Ask your self, why did you longed for a VK? Just because some one tell you about it or did you go through the possibilities with VK, after being inspired by teachings and the mission of evolving an independent Healer from every walk of life, started by Sharat Sir ?? Answer of your of your quarry lies in this question.